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Building a Better World
Saturday, 23 September 2006
The Johnny Cash covers...
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Johnny Cash...Boy named Sue (uncensored)...One (U2)...
Topic: music/movies

I'm going to start this by saying that I fuckin' love Johnny Cash...not a little bit...a lot...

And the reason why I love Johnny Cash can be summed up in the large body of his music and his autobiography, Cash, and the brilliant movie about him, Walk the Line...

But most of all, it can be summed up in Johnny Cash's covers...

The reason why I love Johnny Cash is because he's a tough sum bitch who knew what it was like to be down and what it was like to want your freedom and who, out of all of that, seemed to be a friend to everyone he met...he seemed to love everyone...

And that love for people is found best, I think, in his covers...

Johnny Cash covered everyone...everyone...he's all over the fuckin' place...and I fuckin' love it...

If you have not heard the American Recordings by Johnny Cash, I highly, highly recommend them...

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Johnny_Cash_discography

Covers of Trent Reznor's Hurt, Chris Cornell's Rusty Cage, Depeche Mode's Personal Jesus, the Eagles' Desperado, Paul Simon's Bridge Over Troubled Waters, Roberta Flack's The First Time I Saw Your Face, Neil Diamond's Solitary Man, Tom Petty's I Won't Back Down, David Allan Coe's Would You Lay With Me (in a Field of Stone) ...

And the best goddamned version of U2's One that I have ever heard, including U2's version, as much as I've come to love that song...

This and a million other classic Cash and covers...

And this is the same man who hung with Billy Graham and Ozzy Osbourne...

Johnny Cash had a lot of warts...but he was, at heart, a decent man who was a friend to everyone...

And that's why I love Johnny Cash...for the same reason why I love Mark Twain...

Because their fundamental natures were to like people...to love them...not to villify or judge or hurt them...

I also love U2's later music much more, now that I've heard Johnny Cash's cover of One...they can do whatever music they want to...I'd much rather them do whatever the fuck they want then follow any pattern that I or anyone else would set out for them...that goes for Brandi too...

Thanks, Johnny...for helping me see beauty and wisdom where others may have just heard another rock song...

Love, Ben


Posted by benfrankln at 5:47 PM CDT
Monday, 20 February 2006
This note is for Brandi (since she's been reading, lately)...
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Elizabethtown...Kirsten Dunst...Orlando Bloom
Topic: music/movies
I didn't want to upset you by writing, directly...

But I did want to tell you to check out Elizabethtown, when you get a chance...

There are a million coincidences in this film...

But the big thing that I thought only you would appreciate as much as me...

Was the custom-designed car-trip home by Claire for Drew...where Claire (Kirsen Dunst) has Drew (Orlando Bloom) stop off in Memphis...to check out the National Civil Rights Museum...and Sun Studios...they play U2's Pride in the Name of Love while he's looking at all of the displays that I thought, for sure, they would never put into the film...

And then he goes through Wichita on the way home...

Oh...and an ex-fiance with a overengaged academic career...named Ben:):):)...

It's another great Cameron Crowe flick for anyone wanting to see Cameron Crowe's second great love story...

Highly recommended:):)...

Love,
Ben

Posted by benfrankln at 4:41 PM CST
Wednesday, 1 February 2006
One of the most beautiful songs I've ever heard in my life...
Now Playing: February...Dar Williams...
Topic: music/movies
If you haven't heard Dar Williams' February...

It is one of the songs in your life that you should listen to, at least once...

To get an idea of what beauty sounds like...

There are very few songs that touch me like this song does...

The Crash Test Dummies' Superman Song...U2's I Still Haven't Found What I'm Looking For (the Rattle and Hum album's live version)...The Indigo Girls' Closer to Fine...Louis Armstrong's What a Wonderful World (the 1970 live version)...Sinead O'Connor's You Do Something To Me off of Red, Hot, and Blue...and Annie Lennox's Every Time We Say Goodbye, off the same album...Clint Black's Something That We Do...The Dixie Chicks' Top of the World...Rascal Flats' These Days...Diamond Rio's Beautiful Mess...Darryl Worley's I Miss My Friend...

...and a million others...

But Dar Williams' February lives in a special part of my heart...

It captures, better than any song I've ever heard, the tragedy of true love lost...

It takes me back to Kansas City, 2001, when Brandi and I were living together...and falling apart...

"And February was so long, that it lasted into March...and found us walking a path...alone together...

You stopped and pointed...and you said, 'That's a crocus'...and I said, 'What's a crocus'...and you said 'It's a flower'...I tried to remember, but I said, 'What's a flower?'...

You said, 'I still love you'..."

It's one of the most beautiful songs I've ever heard in my entire life...

And I thank Dar Williams from the bottom of my heart...for creating and singing such an gorgeous piece of music...

I'm going to be listening to it all night...

Have a good night, everyone:):)...

Love,
Ben

Posted by benfrankln at 5:20 PM CST
Tuesday, 15 November 2005
Some kind of monster...
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Some kind of monster...the most excellent rockumentary of Metallica...
Topic: music/movies
If you haven't checked out Metallica's rockumentary Some Kind of Monster...I highly recommend it...

It's a great opportunity to watch a band reflect on itself...on it's problems...as a band trying to record an album...and as friends for twenty years being honest with one another in ways that they've never been honest with each other before...

If you're not familiar with the movie and the band...Some Kind of Monster chronicles Metallica's recording of its most recent album...with the help of a therapist hired by their production company...to facilitate a process that had hit a serious breakdown after bassist, Jason Newstead, left the band...

As lead singer, James Hetfield put it...

"We worked on ourselves...identified what part can we work on...so when someone else steps in...it's clean...they're not stepping in our shit"...

It's pretty impressive, actually...to see a rock band...a metal band, at that...so maturely deal with a serious problem that the band had had for quite awhile...namely...keeping a bassist...after the death of their earliest bass player, Cliff Burton...and then a whole shitload of issues that band members had between one another -- especially between Hetfield and drummer and the other strongest personality in the band, Lars Ulrich...

The funniest part of the movie is learning what a puss guitarist, Kirk Hammett, was a lot of the time...though I definitely give the whole band, Kirk included, much more respect after seeing this documentary than the already powerful respect I've had for Metallica after seeing them live in concert at Lollapalooza in 1996...

And it is interesting to see that when people who don't seem to have a lot of complexity to their thoughts and feelings...share their inner-most thoughts and feeelings...there's not all kinds of complexity that I thought I might find underneath...that a lot of their problems are pretty simple...they just haven't figured them out yet:):)...

It was crazy and funny watching their therapist be a total puss about the band's decision to cut him loose when they were ready to move on...if I were Metallica's therapist, I would totally thank the shit out of them for letting me hang with them and maybe ask them for some decent concert tickets...and let that be that:):)...

And listening to James Hetfield tell an audience full of prisoners that we are all born good...and that without music he might either be in that prison or dead...was really powerful...

If you're interested in watching some of the world's biggest rock stars growing up and learning how to treat each other better...and making great music out of that...definitely check out this movie:):)...

Have a great night, everyone:):)...

Love,
Ben

Posted by benfrankln at 8:19 PM CST
Updated: Wednesday, 16 November 2005 9:22 AM CST
Saturday, 29 October 2005
Once again...I'm wrong...
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Mighty Aphrodite...Woody Allen's best film, I think:):)...
Topic: music/movies
...Mighty Aphrodite is a better film than Melinda, Melinda:):)...

Melinda, Melinda is Woody Allen at some of his best, I think:):)...Will Farrell, especially, makes the movie:):)...

But Mighty Aphrodite may be Woody Allen's best film...Mira Sirvino is a total doll:):)...

This is a long-standing discussion between me and Melissa...Matt Toplikar, my director friend from Liberty Hall, our little artsy movie theater here in town:):)...and Joel Reavis, our good friend from EMU Theater...

I love Annie Hall...and Manhattan...and Everything You Wanted to Know About Sex But Were Afraid to Ask...and Deconstructing Harry...and Everyone Says I Love You...and Love and Death...and The Purple Rose of Cairo...

But I really liked Melinda, Melinda when we saw it in the theaters...we just saw it again:):)...it was very good...but Mighty Aphrodite is a better film...

And the Purple Rose of Cairo may be better than Melinda, Melinda too...I'll have to watch Annie Hall, again...though I was really disappointed by the break-up ending...Annie Hall is a great movie...but I always say that it's like the story of Harry and Hellen before the story of When Harry Met Sally:):)...

But Mira Sirvino is classic in Mighty Aphrodite:):):)...and the script is brilliant:):):)...

And I feel deeply ashamed that I kept arguing that Melinda, Melinda may be Woody Allen's best film...

Definitely not Mighty Aphrodite:):):)...

Back to the movie:):)...

Love,
Ben

Posted by benfrankln at 10:19 PM CDT
Updated: Saturday, 29 October 2005 10:22 PM CDT
Monday, 19 September 2005
You were right, Kenny:):):)...
Mood:  energetic
Now Playing: Jimmie's Chicken Shack...This is not hell...
Topic: music/movies
...this band rocks!!!:):):)...

Jimmie's Chicken Shack...This Is Not Hell...

Download it...buy it...check it out:):):)...

Love,
Ben

Posted by benfrankln at 1:47 PM CDT
Updated: Monday, 19 September 2005 1:53 PM CDT
Sunday, 5 June 2005
Saw Star Wars: Revenge of the Sith, last night:):):)...
Mood:  bright
Now Playing: Star Wars...Return of the Jedi:):):)...we just had to watch any of the prequels betters today:):):)...
Topic: music/movies
Well...

George Lucas has definitely redeemed himself with this last Star Wars:):):)...

...more soulful:):):)...very intelligent:):):)...much better, overall, than the previous two prequels:):):)...

And still DOESN'T EVEN TOUCH the first three Star Wars, I don't think:):):)...

...though this prequel was the closest to its original brethren:):):):):)...

Lucas has a lot of REALLY GREAT THINGS to say about contemporary politics:):):)...

And much of the movie is both implicitly critical of the President's "with us or against us" counterterrorism policy:):):) -- "You're either with me or you're one of the enemy" says Annakin Skywalker to Ben Kenobi...and of those liberals (not the majority, by far:):):) who are more concerned with understanding the perspective of terrorists than capturing and defeating them:):):) -- "From my perspective, you are evil" newly annointed Darth Vader relates again to his former teacher:):):)...

The acting is not the hottest in ANY of the Star Wars, I think everyone would agree:):):) (though Harrison Ford, Alec Guiness, and Carrie Fisher are a far better group than the really still pretty decent Ewan McGregor, Natalie Portman, and Hayden Christensen...

Star Wars: Episode IV - A New Hope...

Star Wars: Episode III - Revenge of the Sith...

But STILL:):):):):):):)...

A VERY GOOD MOVIE:):):):):):):)...

HIGHLY RECOMMEND:):):):):)...

Check out Return of the Sith, when you get a chance:):):)...

Love,
Ben

Posted by benfrankln at 4:27 PM CDT
Saturday, 30 April 2005
Why I've learned to love Tody Keith:):):)...
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: Top of the World...Dixie Chicks:) (I know:):)...ironic, innit?:):):)...
Topic: music/movies
I am a HUGE Dixie Chicks fan:):):)...their most recent album, Home, is one of the best albums I've ever heard...and certainly one of the best country albums I've ever heard:):):)...

But I also LOVE Toby Keith:):):)...as a human being, of course:):):)...but also as a country music artist:):):)...

Toby's music isn't always as high minded as the Chicks' most recent album, I don't think:):):) (though most country music isn't as high minded as the Chicks' most recent album, as a rule:):):)...

But then Toby will come through with something REALLY beautiful:):):)...like American Soldier:):):)...which I think is one of THE most beautiful country songs/song ever written:):):)...

Angry American is great venting music:):):)...though I wouldn't necessarily call it high-minded:):):):):):)LOL:):):)...

But American Soldier is something special:):):)...one of the most beautiful tributes to American military servicepeople -- their daily lives...their daily sacrafices...their daily commitments -- that I've ever heard...

Really great stuff:):):):):):)...

And though the country music world is one that pays more tribute than other groups to American servicepeople and law enforcement...noone's done a song in my experience that quite touches Toby's sweet, personal tribute to the troops:):):)...

I think the Chicks have give Toby a bad rap, really...I don't know Toby...and maybe he is something more of a prick in person:):):)...and maybe the Chicks are too:):):)...though something tells me that the Chicks would be MUCH COOLER to hang out with:):):):):):)...

I just want to state, publicly, by the way, that -- at this moment in music history:):):) -- I would FAR RATHER go to a Dixie Chicks concert than a U2 concert:):):):):):)...sorry, Bono:):):)...but your music just hasn't been up to snuff, lately:):):)...and Natalie, Marty, and Emily have been putting out their BEST STUFF, recently:):):):):):)...

As Ala reminded me, recently, Darryl Worley's Have You Forgotten is FAR MORE reactionary and bold in it's thoughtlessness in trying -- desperately -- to make connections between Osama Bin Laden's role in 9/11 and this ill-conceived war in Iraq...

Toby's Angry American just vents...

It just says, "When you saw what happened at 9/11, didn't you want to go put a boot in the ass of the people who did it?"...

And I think most people...including the Chicks, I hope, would have to say, "Yes":):):):):):)...

Darryl Worley's song says, "When you saw what happened at 9/11, didn't you want to go put a boot in Saddam Hussein's ass?"...a bigger leap in logic that still hasn't borne itself out, yet (though there were plenty of reasons to want to put a boot in the ass of Iraq's long-time dictator...9/11 just wasn't, at all, a good enough reason)...

I like Toby:):):):):)...I like his casual "Who's your daddy?" approach to life:):):)...I like his references to smoking pot on his most recent album:):):)...I like his more casual, freedom-loving conservative approach to life, much of which I share:):):):):):)...

And I like that after all that stupid flack over Angry American, that Toby came back with a song so beautiful like American Soldier, written with a desire, I think, to demonstrate that his thoughts during this war are with the troops on a dangerous mission rather than with the politics, which are FAR MORE complicated, and something that Toby seems to have some humility that he may not quite understand them well enough to comment (and good for him)...

Toby Keith's a good guy, I think:):):)...I wouldn't mind hanging with him:):):)...and then maybe building some bridges between him and my a bit rush-too-judgment Chicks:):):):):):)...

Because god knows that I'm not giving up my Chicks either:):):):):):)...

They're all just like a bunch of good friends who I've never met who are all just human...and make mistakes:):):)...and sometimes lose their cool...and get a little heated:):):):):):)...as we all get lost in the bullshit trying to make sense of the world:):):):):):)...

White Trash Wedding is the song I'm listening to now:):):):):):)...THIS is why I LOVE the Chicks:):):):):):):):):)...

"You can't afford no ring"...

"You can't afford no ring"...

"I shouldn't be wearing white...and you can't afford no ring":):):):):):):):):)...

"You finally took my hand...you finally took my hand"....

"It took a nip of gin...but you finally took my hand"

"You can't afford no ring...you can't afford no ring":):):)...

"I shouldn't be wearing white...and you can't afford no ring":):):):)...

"Mama don't approve...mama don't approve"...

"Dad says you're the best in town...and mama don't approve":):):):):)...

"You can't afford no ring...you can't afford no ring...I shouldn't be wearing white...and you can't afford no ring":):):)...

"Baby's on it's way...baby's on it's way...say I do and kiss me quick...'cause baby's on it's way":):):)...

"I shouldn't be wearing white and you can't afford no ring":):):)...

And now, "A Home," off of the Home album, which is too sad for me to recount for you now...let's just say it's about a regretted break-up...this song is TOO DEPRESSING (though beautiful)...it hits places in my heart that is already overmined for grief...

I'm kind of surprised how hard a time I'm having opening myself up again, recently...I didn't think it would be this hard, this time...I've gotten so good at it:):):):)...

And I don't think most people realize what work goes into it:)...

I think most people are so busy interpreting it as weakness (out of a need to protect their fragile little egoes) rather than as work and courage that they haven't gotten the gumption up to demonstrate, that they just don't appreciate everything that goes into being such an open person...

It pisses me off, really...it leaves me feeling terribly taken for granted...

Like that wife in Top of the World who's husband just can never learn to stop being such a prick so that he might learn to get away from the habit of hurting his wife to avoid dealing with pain that he's too much of a pussy to face himself...

Well...I'm not up for another generation of that bullshit...

I say to the pussies of the world too afraid to face your deeper emotional issues...

Face up...stop being such a pussy...and stop taking your shit out on the people around you...

That means facing your control issues...and your fears...and your lost loves...and your family issues...and every other issue that leaves you being such a dick all the time...

I have lots of compassion for assholes, I have to say...

Which is why I LOVE Top the World:):):):):):)...

But...like Natalie's voice DRIPPING WITH SARCASM at the beginning of this song implies...

I also hold assholes -- assholes like Noam Chomsky and Ann Coulter...dicks like David Horowitz and Catherine McKinnon...bullies like Tom Delay and Lyndon Johnson -- and all the other sons-a-bitches in the world...

I hold them ALL accountable for their bullshit...

That goes for Tom Skrtic, my advisor in grad school, too...

And I will for the rest of his and my life...

And it goes for every son-of-a-bitch who has used their positions of authority to bully others ...

"Cause everyone is singing...we just want to be heard"...

"Disappearing every day without so much as a word"...

"Want to grab ahold of that little song-bird"...

"Take her for a ride to the top of the world...right now"...

"I wished I had known you...wished I had shown you"...

"All of the things I...was on the inside"...

"I'd pretend to be sleeping...when you'd come in in the morning"...

"To whisper goodbye...go to work in the rain...I don't know why...don't know why"...

"Cause everyone is singing...we just want to be heard"...

"Disappearing every day without so much as a word"...

"Want to grab ahold of that little song-bird"...

"Take her for a ride to the top of the world...right now"...

And then this GORGEOUS violin solo from Marty Maguire...and this AMAZING vocal solo by Natalie Maines...

Now I know why I love this song:):):)...

Because it sings the sad, sad, and sometimes tragic fate of those like me who love bullies...despite all their bullshit...

All of them...

All of us...

I've got some Chicks to attend to:)...

Love,
Ben

Posted by benfrankln at 8:57 AM CDT
Updated: Saturday, 30 April 2005 9:26 AM CDT
Monday, 25 April 2005
Thank god for great country music:):):)...
Mood:  blue
Now Playing: ...great country music:):):)...
Topic: music/movies
Something that We Do:):):)...Clint Black:):):)

(probably my favorite country music song of all time...and the song that I plan to sing to my wife at our wedding:):):)...

Top of the World:)...Dixie Chicks:):):)...

Beautiful Mess:):):)...Diamond Rio:):):)...

These Days:):):)...Rascal Flats:):):)...

I Miss My Friend:):):)...Darryl Worley:):):)...

A Home:):):)...Dixie Chicks:):):)...

Long Black Train:):):)...Josh Turner:):):)...

Godspeed:):):)...Dixie Chicks:):):)...

American Soldier:):):)...Toby Keith:):):)...

More Love:):):)...Dixie Chicks:):):)...

I've watched the video for Darryl Worley's I Miss My Friend three times, this morning...

And I've balled twice...

I miss my friend:(...

When Brandi and I broke up almost 4 years ago, now (we broke up the first August of 2001...about a month before 9/11)...it was temporary...

It took 6 months for Brandi to figure out that she wanted to make it permanent...

And...so...in the spring and summer of 2002...I fell in love with root beer and country music:):):)...

With songs like I Miss My Friend...by Darryl Worley:):):)...These Days...by Rascal Flats:):):)...Beautiful Mess...by Diamond Rio:):):)...

...and later:)...

The entire Home album put out by the Dixie Chicks...the one that got them in so much trouble:):):)...and one of the most beautiful albums, period, I've ever heard...and definitely the best country album I've ever heard in my life...

Songs like More Love...A Home...Top of the World...Traveling Soldier...Godspeed...Tortured, Tangled Hearts...White Trash Wedding:):)...I Believe in Love...Truth No. 2...Long Time Gone:)...the Chicks' AWESOME cover of Landslide:):):)...Little Jack Slade:):)...

It's an INCREDIBLE album...beautiful...smart...compassionate...loving...funny:):):):):):)...

And uniquely the Chicks:):):):):):)...

I repeat:):):)...it is one of THE BEST ALBUMS I've ever heard, period:)...but it is definitely the best country album I've ever heard in my life:):):)...

Has anyone ever heard any of these songs?:):):)...Am I the only country music geek among us?:):):)...

I hope not:):):)...because these songs are BEAUTIFUL:):):)...and should be appreciated by everyone, I think:):):):):):)...

These songs are so authentic:):):)...these really beautiful reflections on relationships gone awry:):):)...for grown-ups who know that they have to pick themselves up and move on to new loves and new dreams:):):)...

The best that country music has to offer, I think:):):)...no matter how many people say that they like old country better than new country:):):)...

It's pretty clear to me that the life in country music is derived from wonderful, new, progressive country music bands like these:):):)...

These Days is this GORGEOUS song about a couple running into one another after having broke up years earlier:):):)...

"Hey, baby...is that you?...wow, you're hair got so long:)...yeah, yeah, I love it...I really do":):):)...

"Norma Jean, ain't that the song we'd sing in the car, driving downtown, top down, making the rounds, checking out the bands on Dulhemy Avenue"...

"Yeah...life throws you curves"...

"But you learn to swerve"...

"Me...I swung and missed...and the next thing you know...I'm reminiscing...dreaming old dreams...wishing old wishes...like you would be back again"...

"I wake up...and teardrops...they fall down like rain"...

"I put on that old song we danced to and then"...

"I head off to my job...guess not much has changed":):):)...

"Punch the clock...head for home...check the phone...just in case...go to bed...dream of you"...

"Yeah...that's what I'm doing these days"...

"Yeah that's what I'm doing":):):):):):)...

AMAZING song:):):):):):)...I must have listened to that song a hundred times after Brandi and I broke up:):):)...

I listened to a lot of country music after Brandi and I broke up:):):)...sat in the driveway...drank root beer:):):)...

I did have one night of whiskey and Darryl's "I Miss my Friend":):):)...another GREAT country song:):):)...

And "The Good Stuff":):):)...by Kenny Chesney:):):):):):)...

A lot of REALLY GREAT love stories that got played a lot (I'm not sure when they came out since my following of country music is only very recent:):):) about the time when Brandi and I broke up:):):)...just post 9/11 (Brandi and I broke up in August of 2001, just a month before 9/11:):):)...

I later learned to love Toby Keith and Josh Turner and more conservative country singers:):):)...I would sing American Soldier at the top of my lungs in my car when it first came out:):):)...and Josh Turner's Long Black Train was some comfort and a healthy antidote to the slight mean streak I could feel coming on when I was out of work, after Community Living Opportunities (I just want to go on record to say that I have been fired twice...and both times -- 100% -- the folks who fired me were soon fired afterwards...which was little comfort to
me while I slept in my car in Milwaukee, scared to death of where I was going to sleep, eat, work, etc)...

And only very recently did I find Leann Rhimes' GORGEOUS version of Amazing Grace:):):)...

But, recently, the creative juices in country music just didn't seem to flow so easily:):):)...Tim McGraw's "Live Like You Were Dying" is beautiful:):):)...but his "Drugs or Jesus" is just one of the shittiest country music songs I've ever heard in my entire life:):):):):):)...

And just not a lot of songs like these really beautiful love songs that seemed to be playing more in 2001 and 2002:):):)...

I was just having this conversation with my friend, Angela, last night:):):)...

The Academy Awards, I think, have just been much shittier in the last few years (as has mainstream cinema, as well, I think, relative to some recent past years -- like 1993 and 1994, when the Unforgiven and Schindler's List won Best Picture awards) for whatever reasons:):):)...

I mean...Lord of the Rings was good...but Best Picture of 2004?...I don't think so...Lost in Translation was nominated that year...and there were at least 10 and as many as 20 movies I named for Angela that I thought should have been nominated and/or won over Lord of the Rings:)...

The Cooler?...Monster?...Girl with the Pearl Earring?...

I have my normal beefs with the Oscars...not nominating Glengarry Glenn Ross for Best Picture or the rest of that cast other than Al Pacino for Best Supporting Actor in 1993...or Denzel Washington in Malcolm X losing to Al Pacino in Scent of a Woman that year for Best Actor the same year ...Al DESERVED Best Supporting Actor, for Glenngarry Glenn
Ross:):)...but Denzel deserved the Best Actor award, and was robbed, I believe:):):)...

But my problem with the Academy runs deeper the last couple of years...

The movie selection, generally, just hasn't been as good these last couple of years:):):)...

...and then the Academy's just been making these really poor choices, lately, I think:):):)...

Like Rene Zelwigger for Best Supporting Actress in 2004 for Cold Mountain, a TERRIBLE movie, that she tries to save like a sinking ship...when there were 20 actresses, at least, who did better jobs with good scripts and deserved that award:):):)...that pick was THE BIGGEST EMBARRASSMENT in recent and maybe all-time Oscar history, I think:):):):):):)...

...or Lord of the Rings for Best Picture in the same year when Lost in Translation is nominated:):):)...and when a ton of other movies...

...Monster...House of Sand and Fog...The Cooler...In America...Finding Nemo...the Barbarian Invasions...The Girl with the Pearl Earring...even
American Splendor...

...are all probably better movies:):):)...

I think my favorite, that year, amongst all of those (there are still a couple like Seabiscuit or Master and Commander: The Farther Side of the World that I still have not seen or, as in the case of Seabiscuit, which I've only seen in part) was Monster...which didn't get nominated...but deserved it more than Seabiscuit, I can tell just from what I'm seen of that cheesy little flick:):):)...and certainly more than the cold, dark, helpless landscape painted in Mystic River...

...and Monster is a fairly decent-sized budget movie...with two stars, Charleze Theron, who was BRILLIANT and TOTALLY deserved the Best Actress Award, and Christina Ricci, who WAY deserved that Best Supporting Actress Award far more than fuckin' Rene Zelwigger for Cold Mountain...

The Oscars and the movie world, generally...and the music world (U2, in particular)...and the entertainment, world, generally, I think...they've all just not been putting out their best stuff in the last couple of years...

And it's just kind of disappointing when you compare it with really great stuff from earlier periods:):):):):):)...

A lot of it I think is money...people rationalizing and compromising quality with profits...I think that explains the Lord of the Rings pick for Best Picture in 2004, which was DEFINITELY NOT the best picture of 2004:):):)...

And a lot of it, I think, may be politics...war and uncertainty...a conservative push that was scaring a lot of the liberals, in particular, in Hollywood, that the Appocalypse was near:):):):):):)...

And...I don't know what...exactly:):):)...

I just know that a lot of the best movies and performances were/are not getting recognized:):)...and a lot of shittier movies/performances ARE when they don't deserve it, as much:):):)...

I'm sure the Academy will sort through it, over time:):):)...

But it's just sad and frustrating to watch it happen in the meantime, as people rationalize why they don't do GREAT WORK:):):)...and why they, far too often, do a lot of SHITTY WORK:):):):):):)...

But it's great work, in the end, that really innovates in the field:):):)...

50 years from now...very few people will remember Under Siege:):):):):):)...one of the candy movies that made big bucks in 1993:):):)...or Stephen Segal, probably:):):):):):)...

I mean...we all will:):):)...

But not like Stephen Spielberg:):):)...and Schindler's List:):):)...which won Best Picture -- rightly -- that year:):):):):)...

Spielberg makes a lot of silly candy movies:):):)...But he will, ultimately, be remembered for his greatest movies:):):):):):)...

Two of which, I think, are two of the greatest movies, if not THE TWO GREATEST MOVIES OF ALL TIME:):):)...

Schindler's List...and Saving Private Ryan (I can't decide, any more, which I like better:):):):):):)...they're both AMAZING:):):):):):)...

But no movies like those last year...or the last couple of years...

I haven't seen Million Dollar Baby or Ray, yet...so I'm probably speaking too soon on this one:):):):):):)...

Because I'm really looking forward to seeing both of them:):):)...

I hope this is all just a blip on the America's and the world's cultural screen:):):)...because we need the life that great music and movies and TV and journalism and media and culture, otherwise, breathes into our lives and into the culture...

For all of his whining...

Does David Horowitz...or Newt Gingrich...or Ann Coulter...or Jerry Falwell...or Pat Robertson...or other pushers of the culture war, feeding America's addiction to blame someone else for the sorry state of our lives...

Do these folks really believe that the culture could really sustain itself on their culture war or their ideas or their words or voices, alone...or even primarily?...

The truth is that I doubt these folks have thought VERY MUCH AT ALL ABOUT ANYTHING except for THEIR HATE OF LIBERALS...and just about everyone else, as well, I would bet...

What piss poor culture it would be if the growth of the culture was based on the whims or the permission of folks like David Horowitz:):):)...or Ann Coulter:):):)...or Jerry Falwell:):):)...or Pat Robertson:):):)...or Newt Gingrich:):):)...

...or as it already is, far too much, on the whims of my Senator from Kansas, Sam Brownback, as his modern day crusades from the FCC:):):):):):)...

What does it say about the future of the Republican party, by the way, that the only two people flirting with running for office amongst Republicans and conservatives, right now, are Sam Brownback and Newt Gingrich?:):):):):):):):):)...

That's like a Democratic race between Al Sharpton and Dennis Kucinich:):):):):):):):):):)...

What a shitty race that would be:):):):):):):):)...and then you get a fairer idea of what a shitty selection Republicans have in front of them, right now:):):):):):)...

I think I'd rather elect Mandy Moore -- who I'm listening to right now and who's about as candy as red licorice, though her most recent
performance in Saved -- which I have not seen but am DYING to see:):):) -- looks like a nice break from that old typecast:):):):):):)...

...or the Five Blind Boys from Alabama:):):):):):)...

...at least we might get some authentic soul into Congress:):):)...

...instead of all the same old power-wrangling that tries to play itself off as more honest soul-searching:):):):):):)....

In the meantime...

I have a message for conservatives still engaged in the culture war:):):):):):)...

YOUR CULTURE WAR IS GETTING IN THE WAY OF MY/OUR CULTURE:):):):):):)...

You need to take a seat and find a place within it...rather than trying to control or hurt or limit it:):):):):):)...it's doesn't need your control or regulation, thank you:):):):):):)...

It needs room to grow and live and breathe...and create:):):)...

Including...and especially:):):)...

Room to criticize what sons-a-bitches you are for trying to herd something that, fundamentally, needs to be out from under your thumb:):):):):):)...

Because I'm tired of shitty "Drugs or Jesus" songs from Mr. McGraw:):):):):):)...

I want great music, again:):):)...American Soldier and Long Black Train and Living Like You Were Dying being notable exceptions to the overall general trend of not-to-terribly-great-country-music-lately...

And I want new stuff all over the airways:):):)...

Not having to find old stuff from a downloading service because new stuff gets squeezed by an unforgiving, ugly, nasty inversion of everything that authentic religion and spirituality does or should stand for:):):):):):)...by this stupid little culture war, that needs to take a break, pick up a book (preferably one by someone whom you DON'T AGREE WITH:):):):):):)...

...and LEARN SOMETHING ALREADY:):):):):):)...

Which reminds me:):):):)...after reading Ala's blog...

Blonde sagacity:):):)...Ala's great little conservative blog:):):)...

I remembered the Tom Delay article I read that quoted Ted Nugent radicalizing the right:):):):):):)...

The right is radicalizing:):):):):):)...that's what's been going on lately:):):):):):)...

So...if you're wondering why this last week or so has seemed as loopy as the earlier days of left radicalization at the beginning of the war:):):)...

Look no further:):):):):):)...

And don't worry you're pretty little heads about it:):):)...RADICALIZATION ALMOST NEVER WORKS IN ANY SUBSTANTIAL WAY:):):):):):):)...except in the solipsistic minds of folks like Ann Coulter and David Horowitz:):):)...or Noam Chomsky and Catherine McKinnnon:):):):):):)...

Everyone else has to deal with the real world:):):):):):)...

In the meantime:):):)...

I've got my Chicks:):):)...and my Rascal Flats:):):)...and my Diamond Rio:):):)...and Darryl Worley:):):)...and Toby Keith and Josh Turner and Tim McGraw:):):):):):)...

And I need them during times like now when...

...when I miss my friend...

It took an awful lot for me to open up my heart after Brandi and I broke up...

I think Brandi and most of my friends just totally take that for granted, really...

But Brandi, especially...

I'm so thankful to have these songs:):):)...

...to help me let it all out...and all of the love in:):):)...

...because love isn't something that we find...it's something that we do:):):)...

Have a great day, everyone:):):):):):)...

Love,
Ben

Posted by benfrankln at 9:11 AM CDT
Updated: Wednesday, 27 April 2005 12:54 PM CDT

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